My very last undergraduate assignment is due by the end of the day and i am damned if i can’t muster up the motivation to write it. I have spent way too much time over the past two days rewriting the same three pages…it is supposed to be twenty. Hopefully, however, by this time tomorrow the weight of the world will be off my shoulders. Here’s crossing my fingers…

I am not proud that my 37 page paper has a four sentence conclusion. The best thesis is a completed thesis though, right?

I have been here for six hours…the only work i have managed to complete was the marking of two essays. Smack me. Please.

Working at CIJR can be mind-numbing. I stuffed envelopes for just under six hours today. I have been stuffing envelopes in offices since i was three and my Dad first started bringing me into his office when he worked overtime on Sundays. It is getting a tad old, but i understand that it actually IS an important menial task - unlike hole-punching which i abhor. Sitting there all day always makes me want to write something here, but i should be devoting that energy to the many assignments that are due.

Hence, i provide you with two updates. The first in on my grandmother’s health (she’s been in the hospital, crying whenever my Dad tries to leave that she is scared and doesn’t want to die alone). She is likely going home tomorrow and my Dad is THRILLED. Secondly, i will commence a new countdown now that classes are over. See below for my crazy schedule and the deadlines it contains.

Tuesday April 17th: 10am - Thesis Supervisor Meeting; 2:45pm - 490 Exam Review; 5pm - Dinner with Eric.

Wednesday April 18th: 10am-4pm - Work at CIJR; 5pm - History & Public Policy Take-Home Final (12 pages ) Due. Must resubmit “Contribution Report” because the last one sucked as i was feverish. 4:15pm-10pm - Study for Medieval Europe Exam with Derek.

Thursday: Work on Thesis and Mark Essays

Friday April 20th: Work on Thesis and Mark Final Exams; 7pm Honours Thesis Due (12 pages + editing left to complete); Collapse in a heap.

Saturday: Read 3 unread works for 490 Exam; Outline Proust/Nabokov Paper; 9pm Party at Katerina’s

Sunday: Recover from Party; Study for Medieval History; Write introduction for Proust/Nabokov

Monday April 23: 9am - 490 Exam; 2pm - Medieval Europe Exam; Write Proust/Nabokov; Finish any marking not already completed and send to Professor.

Tuesday: Write Proust/Nabokov

Wednesday: 10am-4pm - Work at CIJR

Thursday April 26th: Nabokov/Proust Paper Due (25 pages)

Friday: 10am-4pm - Work at CIJR; go home and collapse in heap

Saturday: NOTHING PLANNED! OMFG!

Sunday: 7pm - Last Supper (woohoo!)

Monday April 30th: Recover from Last Supper

As of May 1st, i work full-time (9am-5pm) at CIJR.

Countdown: 51 pages!!!!

i haven’t written ANYTHING in a week. The combination of Easter, commemorative slumming around and then a high fever has resulted in my being no further ahead today than i was at this time one week ago. The deadlines are moving closer, not just because time is moving forward but because they are being moved up as my thesis supervisor leaves the country before the deadline for submission and i need him to be done correcting before he leaves in order for me to graduate. That and i stupidly said i would start working my summer job on Monday. I need cash. NOW. My throat hurts too much to eat anything substantial and i am afraid of hot beverages…hugs are welcome.

Countdown: 71 pages

cold showers…two days in a row. Not a good way to start the day.

I would like to take a minute to ponder junk email. Who sends them? Do they ever work? Why waste time and resources (even if minimally) on such an ineffective campaign? i am confused.

Countdown: 71 pages

in a container of cashew butter. yum!

Got an A on my Name of the Rose paper even though it had a couple of typos and some awkward transitioning…woot!

The wireless is down at school. that is a pain in the ass.

My father has decided to continue with the insane guilt-tripping and he won this time - i am going to be attending Easter dinner at my aunt’s Saturday. I would prefer to spend the week-end moping, but whatever. He likely won about the summer job too as i would have to cancel the trip to the Baltic in order to work in Ottawa and since it’s already paid for that is not an option.

What do y’all think of permitting someone to harvest your eggs for in-vitro fertilization to pay for grad school? I need a plan.

one small, black Nalgene bottle. 75% full with tap water.

Last seen in Wilson Hall.